This have been a long drawn out weekend for me.

First of all Friday turned out to be a pretty good time when we went to see my Aunt Chinessa and when we got to the funeral home I saw a few college buddies and that bought back old memories. As soon as we made it there I saw the sister of one of my ex girlfriend's and she said that Jennifer wanted my number because she wanted to talk to me. So I gave her the number.

 Yesterday as I was sitting on the couch getting my drank on watching football when the phone rang and guess who, It was Jennifer. She asked if I was fine and doing alright and yes I was, so she said you probably need to be sitting down for this one and I said What's up.

She goes on to tell me that we have a daughter. My jaw dropped to the floor. I went blank for a moment totally speachless. She says that I know that you are mad at me and that you will probably will never forgive me. If I do it will be a long time from now.

Any way her name if Jamaica Lusk and she is 20 years old. I have never seen my baby in life but that will change real soon. Jennifer and I had a long talk and she will be giving me the information for me to get to her and I hope that turns out good. Who knows, I don't know how she will take me not never being around.

I wouldn't blame her for not wanting anything to do with me, but this is not my fault. I guess Jennifer is the blame for not telling me years ago.

No matter what I will love her anyway and I hope we can get the chance to meet one day.

It's not a night mare because of my daughter, it's a night mare because she waited 20 year to tell me.